hi pretty,
by: me… duh
I think ever since ive made this website its just become the go too love letter,
I just wanted to wish you christmas because if it was merry Id currently have your tongue in my mouth but whatever… lol.
It’ss been 7 months since we’ve split up and you haven’t once left my mind. There hasn’t been a day where I haven’t thought about that sweet smile, that pretty face, those soft hands, that voluptuous… lowkey turning me on… I need that.
No but in all seriousness sim I honestly miss you so much, im jealous of the people that get to experience seeing/talking to you everyday, not a day passes by where im not reminded of you.
It’s even worse that I took so many photos and videos of you, especially now it’s Christmas. All the gifts, all the Christmas dates, Tiffany, Manchester like OMGGGG. And to top it off Avatar 3 has come out and we’re not even together to watch it.
When we were together you were the one I told everything to, like im not even joking I must’ve told you every little thing that was going on in my life, we spoke every morning, noon and night, like the more I think of it, the more it acc puzzles me, how tf did we talk so much.
So when I find some tea or something big happens like idk me getting the new job, or even just something little, I think fuck, sim would’ve loved this, we would’ve loved gossiping and giggling on the phone about the stupidest shit.
There’s also times where I laugh and think ’tbf she would think that would be shit tea’.
Like every in every aspect of my life I am reminded of us, when speaking about Dubai im reminded that we were supposed to move together, talking about kids and I say I want a boy and a girl and I think fuck we were going to have a boy and a girl, I do think about what could’ve been but im more reminded of what was if that makes sense.
The routines, the weekly dates, fino, breakfast, the way being with you just felt like home when everything else was kicking off. Our arguments were bad, and my mistakes were what seem to be endless, but fuck me, when we were together nothing else mattered.
Ive tried to focus on moving on like learn new things, try new things, new job, new experiences and its like my mind won’t let me, my body yearns for you, my heart aches for you, like there’s just days where I need you, but I know that our time isn’t now.
Im cursed with being obsessed and wanting someone that i know I cant have, you are the bane of my existence and the object of all of my desires simran.
I saw this thing where it said, I am just a mosaic of everyone I have ever loved and has loved me, you are a big part of who I am today and I am thankful for everything youve done for me.
I am really proud of you, like youve done so well with selling houses, going to events and even planning on moving to Dubai by yourself like wtf. That’s insane and I am really happy for you that you’re doing well, I genuinely wish you the best sim.
But anyways, to conclude, we started this year together but sadly were not ending it together, even though its shit and sad, im still thankful for those months that we did spend together. You were my favourite part of this year bud, all of the good and bad x
Since im here im also going to list out why I got you what I got you,
Silver ring – this is literally like the same ring that ive got from louvisa, i thought thats such a cute ring and its in silver so we can match but opposite
Bracelet – i already know i got you a bracelet for ur bday but, i saw this bracelet, its like a little bangle and theres two, you can choose between gold and silver and whichever one you dont choose i can have.
Neom Cream – I acc love this cream, i think its my favourite moisturiser of all time, its abit thick but its honestly the best, it makes you smell so good and its just so yummy, lowkey if you dont like it, i will take good care of it.
Jelly Cats + Teddies – Flowers duhhh, i thought they were cute, also i saw these Btec jelly cats in john lewis and was like wtf, i thought youd like them so i got them. Also you already know about the octopus
Tequilla – I already got you this from ages ago but it was just sat in my room and im not going to drink it because its your gift, so this was the one where i was like, youve never been to this place and ik youve never been.
I got you some other bits aswell but ye, i hope you enjoy them all bro, your special to me, your my pooks, my baaaaaaaby, and im still so inlove you with you. ik i dont really say it but i love you. and i miss you.
also it wouldnt be the same without giving you some tiktoks and reels so click here to see the list
Merry Christmas Chick <3
Love from
Rian x
cant wait to eat them nips x
lol